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The following letter-form was brought about as a means of teaching my children the Word of God through the mail. And of course, quite naturally so, that’s the reason I begin these letters with "Dear Children" and end them with "Love Dad". So for the rest of you who participate in these weekly messages, please keep their original intended purpose in mind.
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Lanna's E-mails (continuation #3)
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Mon, 18 Apr 2005 18:13:45 -0700
Subject: Re: major stirring! Luv Lanna!
Warrior Princess;
Hope and pray that all is well with you in this awesome walk with the Lord. The Lord had me post your "Pray My Heart" on our Website under "Words From God - Lanna Perry". What a powerful Word! We also linked it up to your home page.
In Christ,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Tue, 19 Apr 2005 14:22:54 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Woah! Luv Lanna!
Blessings to you in the Mighty Name of Jesus Christ,
( I Love in the Word how they always start their letters with such an awesome blessing. I believe Paul would start his emails like this if he was alive today, hehe)
I am pressing more and more into Jesus, because I am finding I am seeing more and more.
I want to ask you something, have you discerned that the Lord would increase the 'sight' through me quite quickly lately? Just curious whether you saw that, because that's what is happening.
Anyway...I am feeling quite overwhelmed with what I am seeing. I kind of don't understand 'why' I am seeing what I am, but I know it's from God, so that's good.
I keep seeing things for the 'church' in general. I've seen things from people having their swords on the ground, and not picking them up to 'fight'. I have seen demons in churches, and now i've seen christians, walking around with almost like umbilical cords connecting them to the demonic. The demonic either infront of them, or behind them.
There are many different things that I am seeing and they are disturbing me greatly, because as the body of Christ, those who have their swords on the floor and in some way connecting themselves to the evil one, they will not survive what is to come. They simply won't survive spiritually. God showed me, many will 'wake up', and truly face Him and go deeper but many won't. Many will turn away thinking "how could a God that "I" serve let this happen?"
Very self-focused and very much about "me". So I literally see people walking away because God is not serving THEM, the way they want to be served.
When I was 'seeing' all these things, I went through in my mind all of my friends, and my goodness I saw some people that I know in this position. Either not picking up their swords, or allowing the enemy to filtrate things into their lives, and it broke my heart.
I do not want to judge them, or think wrongly of them, but my heart was so saddened when I saw this. I mostly looked at the entire church as the body of Christ, and there was almost a part of me that can't believe what i've been seeing. I kept saying to Jesus "Surely it's not this bad" ...but it is...!!
It really is....and my heart is so saddened.....!!!
So now, the dilemma is what to do with what i'm seeing. I am praying lots, but my gosh it has my heart in such a saddened state, that I want to go climb on the top of a mountain and scream "RISE UP CHURCH, RISE UP".
*weeps* I am getting very teary, sorry....but it's just breaking my heart. Many won't survive what is coming if they don't wake up now.
I mean how many more prophetic words does God have to send out through me or others? Can't people hear? Can't the church hear what God is saying?
We are not rising up, we are not walking in faith enough, someone emailed me and said to me "Lanna, you are portraying a GOD that is saying, we are not doing well enough" and I said to her, to some extent we are not. We are not doing well enough at all, but He loves us right there, and is lovingly encouraging us to GET OFF OUR BUTTS and move forward, because He SEES the Glory of where He wants to take us.
I understand about Jeremiah being a weeping prophet.....Sheesh!
I can't share this with many at all. Can you imagine the reactions.....sheesh! Can you imagine the reactions if i told people that i saw CHRISTIANS attached to demons...or that i saw demons standing in corners of walls waiting to attack people IN CHURCH!! HELLO!!!!!! Those demons are there because someone has invited them in.
I just had this heartbreaking image in my head this morning in the shower whilst praying about this, that many of God's children are going to not walk confidently and gloriously into heaven to hear those words "well done good and faithful servant", but many are going to be going into heaven on coat tails. Being brought in by their mere 'confession' of faith.
I want Jesus to be PROUD to present me to the Father, but my goodness, what I saw, was just heartbreaking.
So that's where I am at. Feeling quite a mess.....and just taking small baby steps through this in prayer.
Thanks for being someone I can trust with the very inner parts of me that are birthing something of the Spirit.
Luv in Jesus,
Your friend forever,
Lanna
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Tue, 19 Apr 2005 00:43:48 -0700
Subject: BUTTPRINTS IN THE SAND
Warrior Princes;
Maybe you should break the ice by sharing this with some of your Christian friends who've refused to pick up their sword.
In Christ,
Bruce
BUTTPRINTS IN THE SAND
(Author Unknown)
One night I had a wondrous dream, One set of footprints there was seen, The footprints of my precious LORD, But mine were not along that shore.
But then some curious prints appeared, And I asked the LORD, "What have we here?" "Those prints are large and round and neat; Those prints are way too big for my feet."
"My child," He said in somber tones, "For miles I carried you alone. I challenged you to WALK IN FAITH, But you refused and made Me wait.
You disobeyed, you would not GROW The walk of faith you would not know. So I was grieved, ... I got fed up, And there I dropped you on your butt.
Because, in life, there comes a time When one MUST FIGHT, and one MUST CLIMB; When one MUST RISE and take a STAND, Or leave their butt-prints in the sand."
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Tue, 19 Apr 2005 01:15:23 -0700
Subject: Re: Woah! Luv Lanna!
Dear Warrior Princess;
So what do you do with all this information that you are receiving? You've been shown the Truth concerning the "luke warm" condition of many "Christians"...but what do you do now?
"Son of man, I have made thee a watchman unto the house of Israel: therefore hear the word at my mouth, and give them warning from me. When I say unto the wicked, Thou shalt surely die; and thou givest him not warning, nor speakest to warn the wicked from his wicked way, to save his life; the same wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at thine hand. Yet if thou warn the wicked, and he turn not from his wickedness, nor from his wicked way, he shall die in his iniquity; but thou hast delivered thy soul. Again, When a righteous man doth turn from his righteousness, and commit iniquity, and I lay a stumblingblock before him, he shall die: because thou hast not given him warning, he shall die in his sin, and his righteousness which he hath done shall not be remembered; but his blood will I require at thine hand. Nevertheless if thou warn the righteous man, that the righteous sin not, and he doth not sin, he shall surely live, because he is warned; also thou hast delivered thy soul." (Ezekiel 3:17-21 KJV)
"Brethren, if any of you do err from the truth, and one convert him; Let him know, that he which converteth the sinner from the error of his way shall save a soul from death, and shall hide a multitude of sins." (James 5:19-20 KJV)
Now for your question: "I want to ask you something, have you discerned that the Lord would increase the 'sight' through me quite quickly lately?" What the Lord has shown me is that you must be "fearless" in order to accomplish your purpose in life. Your "handle" is well suited, but you have much training ahead of you in order to accomplish this task. The "Tribulation" is coming at a rapid pace (exponentially). You must grow in the Lord likewise in order to complete your mission. Your life must be for one purpose...you have no time to spare for anything else.
In the Father's Love,
Bruce
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Tue, 19 Apr 2005 22:12:40 -0700
Subject: Correspondence
Warrior Princess;
The Lord wanted me to share this one with you. It came in an e-mail from one of the Sisters I encourage in the Lord. And by the way, Steve is her brother:
"Steve told me an interesting story. The previous Sunday his wife had went to her Baptist church for service. He had worked the night before swing shift so he was still asleep. She called him after she got out of the service and was shaking so bad she couldn't drive home. Apparently a Satanist had sat in the pew between her and another lady. He made them so nervous with his appearance and muttering under his breath they thought he was mentally unstable. He wrote on the tithing envelope various "symbols"and the words morning star. He got up and went outside and returned with a stick that had two prongs on the end of it. A tree limb someone had whittled on. It had a stuffed snake wrapped around it. he came back in and sat in the pew and Rhonda and the other woman got up and moved. A state trooper who attends walked around to sit beside him and quietly ask him to accompany the trooper outside. The service never stopped. The fellow removed the snake and one of the prongs was sharpened to a point and he tried to stab the trooper with the sharp point. The trooper grabbed the stick and a couple of guys grabbed the fellow and dragged him outside to wait for the cops to arrest him. I'm not sure if the service ever paused. Baptists don't like to cause a scene. Rhonda found the paper with the writing on it and gave it to the pastor. Steve informed her if it had been a Pentacost church they would have laid hands on him and had him delivered before the cops got there to arrest him. We had been talking about Satan and Rebecca Brown's book just a few weeks prior to this."
In Christ,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Wed, 20 Apr 2005 22:49:23 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Full on!!!!!!!! Luv Lanna!
Hey,
How are you?
I am so blessed by your friendship, your encouragement, your words and your support.
To be honest, today my spirit is at great unrest to say the least. I saw the election of the new Pope, meaning I saw 'him' and as soon as I saw him, my spirit went nuts. Something really 'eerie' there, and I had the strongest sense....almost like "here we go.....it's about to begin". My goodness. It's almost a scary thought. God has showed me certain things lately, things I can share, and things I can't, and honestly in my human mind it's freaky. It is so so scary, but in Him, I have peace. I know no matter WHAT happens He will hold me and keep me safe.
It is hard though, the more and more I 'see' little snippets of what is to 'come' the more and more I get upset and frustrated at the church and just want to shake the whole body of Christ up. Sad thing is, is that I think what is coming, is really going to bring a huge shaking.
My frustration being in a coffee shop serving coffee is increasing. I mean HELLO. I don't want to be behind this counter anymore serving coffee. I want to be OUT THERE. I want to be OUT THERE in full time ministry. Warning people. Proclaiming His messages, none of this 9-5pm job. I feel I have nowhere to go though. I don't have any options of getting out there into ministry. I thought the other day, great I can start up my own ministry, buy a company name etc, and then what? So I really am feeling I don't have many options right now. So hence, the more I 'see' the harder it's getting in ALL aspects of life.
You know what's interesting, just as I went to start typing this email, I saw as clear as day before me, the world, as in the globe, and I saw huge huge huge huge balls of fire heading towards the earth. It was for a split second, but I wonder what that is. Wonder what God is trying to show me??
Time is so short. God is doing things so quickly. I mean I look at my own life and the last 6 months has been crazy for me. The way He has grown me and has put me 'out there' so quickly, yet actually getting OUT THERE into full time ministry seems to be taking a lot LONGER though. Sheesh. I guess this is the problem with being prophetic. God shows you all these things, it burns in you like fire, and all you want to do is get out there and proclaim it. You don't want to do anything else.
THAT is my heart. I want to do NOTHING else, than get out there and get the body of Christ to see God's heart for them, and to see the glorious splendour that God has designed for them to walk in all along. Gosh, that's what I want.
I came home tonight, and mum was just talking to me about stuff, and then out of the blue, she says to me "You know Lanna, I was thinking today, you've faced a lot of opposition in your life, to try and pull you off the track from following God. There's always been something trying to pull you away, but you've remained faithful. That shows you are truly chosen. You are truly chosen. The moment you were born and I looked into those eyes, I knew that you were special. Like an angel. You are chosen Lanna".
That knocked me to the floor. I said to her 'yes you're right, and there is nothing else I want to do. I am no more chosen than anybody else, but I know God has a specific call on my life, and nothing will stop me fulfilling it".
Isn't God good?
As the days seem to get harder, we need to cling to God so much tighter. We need to pray though, that the church sees what is coming. It's like only the prophets are being alerted now, the church of Jesus Christ needs to arise. *sigh*
I wanna be out there and blow the shofar.
Love in Jesus,
Lanna
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Wed, 20 Apr 2005 18:55:35 -0700
Subject: Re: Full on!!!!!!!! Luv Lanna!
Warrior Princess;
So now can you say that "God says" this Pope is the "false prophet" of Revelation 13? And just in case you haven't been introduced to "the beast" of that same chapter, I've attached his picture just for you. Tell me what you "spiritually" see in his eyes.
And I know what you mean about wanting to wake up the church. Personally, I've wanted to "slap" the church's face in order to wake it up from it's death sleep. However, we must do this God's way, and fortunately (unfortunately) His Way to do this is not our way. In fact His Way puts the prophets through very unusual and uncomfortable circumstances that the church won't understand.
In fact as I was thinking about you, and the special things that your mother had to say about you, the Lord brought to mind Mary the mother of Jesus. She was a prophet in her own right who was called to do something for God that could have resulted in her being stoned to death. Can you even imagine how she must have felt being pregnant with God's Child but without a husband?
You are very special, just as Mary, and God has some very unusual things planned for your life...so please don't put limits on what God has planned for you to do for His glory.
In Christ,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Thu, 21 Apr 2005 15:35:05 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Oh Dear! Luv Lanna!
Hey,
Thanks for your email. I know work is my mission field for now, but I want to be out there prophesying all the time...not stuck in a cafe, having to watch what i say etc...Anyways,,,
God warned me this morning, "Lanna be very careful today, just keep praying protection over yourself, be careful", so as usual I was like "Yes Lord" and went about my day. Praying protection and being careful.
So I went about my day and boy oh boy did I see what the Lord was talking about. As I went out with a friend of mine I ended up seeing a man, that I know, that likes me. He is not christian, he is a lot older than me, and not for me in anyway shape or form. So anyway, when I do see him, I am pleasant but continue to go on about my day.
Anyways, today i saw him, and again was pleasant but something had changed today. Something was over him that was stronger than before. It was lust. It took me a little while to pick it up.....but when I did I knew what God meant. So I pleasantly said have a nice day and went along with my day. Now I realised I have a dinner party to go too tonight, and it's at his restaurant. When I realised that, I realised I have to cover myself in a lot of prayer.
But you know what else happened? It triggered something in me. It triggered that part of me inside that is still waiting to be loved. That part of me that's longing to be with a godly man, but I must continue to get all love, and acceptance and affection from Christ and not man. I then saw myself throughout the day thinking 'what can i wear tonight' yadda yadda yadda, how can i look beautiful etc....to "impress".
*Ugh* that makes me want to puke! That's not me, but it hooked into that part of me still wanting love and acceptance, so I am having to press into God more than ever now. It just made me sick to think that there was still a small part of me that needs to be healed, and be before God, that was then thinking I could go tonight and 'impress' this guy, who i think I would never be with..but *ugh*
So today has been a hard day, yet I have seen that I still need to press into God in these areas. I get a lot of attention from 'men' but they are always the wrong ones. My past has been filled with being with the wrong men, thank God I never slept with any.
Tomorrow I have a big day. I am meeting with someone who is very influential, and very high in authority in the spiritual realm, what I mean, is that he has been in ministry for a long long time, and has great wisdom. So meeting with him, and boom the day before I see him, I get massively massively attacked in an area where I seem to be still 'weak'.
It did make me see though, how people who completely fall away because of other people in their lives, boyfriends or girlfriends, it is because they have severee wounding and are controlled by that wound. I am no longer controlled by it, I am being healed deeper and deeper everyday, but now I understand. Wow.
It still makes me feel sick what happened today.
I still don't get a good feeling and sense about the pope. I see a lot of bondage and demonic activity in his life. I am not judging him, simply what i see. So to be seeing all these things, and to see such a weakness in me still.....made the day very hard.
:((
How was yours?
Looking forward to hearing back from you,
Love Lanna
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Fri, 22 Apr 2005 18:23:18 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Why I'm not around much! Luv Lanna!
Hey,
Sorry if it seems it's taking me longer to reply to emails. I am actually not doing really well right now.
Something has happened with me the past few days and has knocked me to the floor and just need time out to look at my life, and rediscover yet again who I am in Christ.....really need the Lord to ground that into me again, and allow the warrior to rise up in me again. So I need to be alone. So depending how long it may take not sure when i'll be back to email. May be tomorrow night, may be in a week. Not sure, but just wanting to let you know.
I am standing for God no matter what, but after the series of events this past few days, I have no other option but to lay before God to simply get through the next few days.
Thanks for understanding.
Lanna
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Fri, 22 Apr 2005 07:30:38 -0700
Subject: Re: Why I'm not around much! Luv Lanna!
Warrior Princes;
I'm here for you whenever God directs you back this way. Seek God for His Will for your life, hear God speak His Will for your life, and then just obey God's Will for your life...at "all cost"!
In the Love of the Father,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Sat, 23 Apr 2005 16:40:51 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Thanks for your prayers!
Hi,
Thanks for your concern.
Battle is getting even worse.
All of a sudden non-christian guys coming out of everywhere asking me out, and trying to tempt me.
Seeing that part of me still needs to be healed, and stand strong in my worth in God, and not enjoying attention from men.
I can't even sit still here before this computer and type this email to you properly, my spirit is so distressed.
I feel so weak. I feel like I am being kicked over and over and over and over and over again in a weak spot. I've never slept with anyone willingly and never would, but having men around me, who were my friends, take a liking to me, has triggered something inside me. The need for love part of me that still needs to be healed.
I feel like I"ve disappointed GOD so much because I've given into the attention, meaning, I enjoy it. I enjoy guys finding me attractive and wanting to be with me, but they are all the wrong guys, and the spiritual scene going on behind all of this is ridiculous. what i am seeing going on in the spirit is satan trying to hook into this part of me, and I am feeling so weak. I am standing in HIS strength, but the kicking is getting harder.
Please pray I rise above this attack. 3 or 4 guys coming to me in 2 days. It's getting ridiculous, and I'm feeling so so weak. So Please please pray.
Love Lanna!
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Sat, 23 Apr 2005 00:39:01 -0700
Subject: Re: Thanks for your prayers!
Warrior Princess;
You must walk in His Spirit in every step you take. If you make a move in the flesh you are wide open to the Devil's attacks. Do not go anywhere or do anything unless your Father directs you to. You must walk in the power of His Word or you will fall. Seek God for His direction, hear God's direction, and then obey God's direction for your life:
"This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh. For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would. But if ye be led of the Spirit, ye are not under the law. Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God." (Galatians 5:16-21 KJV)
"There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death. For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh: That the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For they that are after the flesh do mind the things of the flesh; but they that are after the Spirit the things of the Spirit." (Romans 8:1-5 KJV)
That "molestation demon" can not overcome you if you function through God's commanding Word to you. Pray before you make a move, and don't make a move until you hear God tell you to make the move. Do you understand?
In the Father's Love,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Mon, 25 Apr 2005 14:40:52 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Re: Thanks for your prayers!
Hi,
I'm not doing well. I fell.
I am falling for my friend who isn't a christian, and i already let him kiss me. I know he's not for me, I can't go back into another relationship with a non-christian, but he's so wonderful. I feel so weak. *sobs* I feel like i've ruined everything. Please help me stand.
What I have seen lately in the spirit has been so intense, and I've felt so so alone. I have struggled and felt so so lonely. The more I see, the lonlier I feel. People say to me "Jesus is enough" and yes He is, but I long for that connectedness to people aswell. I guess I'm not dead yet, the flesh is still living, but i'm finding this all so hard.
The other night I went to a dinner party. I asked where the bathroom was, and the host took me down to the bathroom, but grabbed me and threw me on a bed and tried to force me to have sex with him.By God's grace I was able to get out of there. Funny thing was, was that i always thought he was gorgeous, but definately not the person I thought he was. Anyways yesterday I got in the shower and i saw huge bruises all over me, and it just broke me. Something in me snapped, and i just sobbed and sobbed. Brought back so many memories of my ex boyfriend raping me. So I am not doing well at all now.
This other guy, my friend, who isn't a christian, he's lovely, and wonderful, and I know he's not for me, but i'm feeling so weak. I love his company, and I'm attracted to him...but I know it's wrong *sobs*
Then today I get this email from a friend that says:
You are now featured as one of the three frontpage quotes on House of the Nations site ... the longest. Along with Smith-Wigglesworth (who died in 1947) and Matt Sorger and an encouraging article on the Ukraine.
*sobs* God was promoting me.....and I've ruined it all..please help me stand...
Love Lanna!
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Sun, 24 Apr 2005 23:25:18 -0700
Subject: Re: Thanks for your prayers!
Warrior Princess;
I spent most of the day trying to finish up the sermonet "Is God Almighty A Sadist?" Is all about the "suffering" that we are called to endure as "Believers". I am not a good writer so the only way I can write is through the empowerment of the Holy Spirit. Each message that the Lord gives me to write is like giving birth to a baby...with much pain.
I have felt very "anxious" most of the day and knew that you were one of the reasons. After watching a JSM Home Church Video tonight I felt the need to turn on the T.V. to a PBS channel. When I got there I found a program on Sydney just beginning. The hostess of the tour was a nice looking young lady who knew nothing of Jesus and likewise promoted the things of the world. Her tour went into some of Sydney's "finest", and ended on "Gay Mardegras" with all the homosexuals. I could just feel the demons of that presentation and thought of you. You are in a very dangerous place.
I'm praying for you but you have got to make the choice of denying your flesh and not Jesus. Let me just tell you that the pain you will suffer by walking away from this relationship (the one that is not of God) will be nothing in comparison to the pain you will experience if you continue on with it. So the question is do you want to suffer in obedience to God (choice #1) or suffer in disobedience and sin (choice #2).
If you are really sick and tired of being connected to the "demon molestation" then allow Jesus to set you free. Don't keep on feeding this demon! Deny your flesh and be set free. You are going places and doing things that are not the Will of the Father. When you walk out on your own - in the flesh - you are going to get nailed. Expect it! This is no game and you are prime meat for the enemy. You have been called for a very special purpose but you must give your life totally to the Lord (24x7x365).
"You can have salvation, but only on one condition; that you are totally sold to Christ, you don't have any personal rights, you no longer belong to yourself, you no longer have any right to anything. You will become a servant. You are in essence signing your own death warrant because Satan will hate you and try to kill you. You are gaining eternal life and citizenship in heaven. You give up your life here on earth to gain life in heaven." (Rebecca Brown, MD - "He Came To Set The Captives Free")
So how can I help you? Is there anything specifically you would like for me to do for you besides pray?
In the Father's Love,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Mon, 25 Apr 2005 22:56:43 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Re: Thanks for your prayers!
Hi,
Thank you for your encouragement and your support. I can't be on here long, I just need to be before God...I am just lying before God, crying and crying.
God is bringing up yet another part of me that needs healing. I saw it this weekend.
A part of me because of being raped in the past by my ex boyfriend, and then the second rape attempt this week, has brought to the surface lies i've believed. Lies that I will not ever get a godly man. A godly man will never be attracted to me, that he can see the 'paw prints' of my ex who raped me and this other guy this week who tried too. That they can see these 'prints' and go running. That I don't ever receive the 'best', I always get second best.
A part of me still yearning for such love. So strongly. I went and saw my new mentor last friday, and he saw the sign around my neck in the spiritual saying "love me"....and that, that sign is attracting the enemy and all the wrong men.
I'm just so tired. I was on the phone tonight with my ex counsellor, bawling my eyes out. I just feel so yuck, so dirty. All the feelings that I had when my ex raped me, have now come back. The paw prints all over me. I've been in the shower scrubbing myself over and over. I am going to see my ex counsellor tomorrow for prayer, as there is obviously a part of me, that still believes that my value is only for guys to take advantadge of me.
My new mentor said to me, as soon as I walked into the room, that he saw that my worth hasn't been concreted, that i still don't know my worth, I still believe in some parts that i am to be 'used' or i am 'marked'...and because i still believe those things, it's attracting the demonic in those areas of my life. He was so so right.
*sobs* I am at a crossroads. I really am. I've been writing letters to my husband for a while now. Just missing him, talking to him through these letters, and they will be my gift to him on our wedding day, but right now, that seems like such a distant dream. I felt like screaming at satan tonight, and i felt like screaming "STOP TWISTING THE KNIFE", like he's telling me, "you are this, and that" and then situations confirm that, and it's like that knife gets twisted.
My friend, who isn't saved, that I let kiss me, he's wonderful, but he doesn't share the passion for Christ that I do. Yet I keep thinking over and over, what if Mr right never comes? What if i am dreaming, thinking a godly man would ever want me? What if i'm wrong?
*sobs*
Thanks for being here for me...I want to walk the road God has for me, and I want to be with the man God has for me, but it's like the more I pray that God will send him to me, the more i get sent the wrong men, and constantly men wanting to have sex with me or try and rape me.....or....with my friend now....falling for me...but he's not saved.....it's ALWAYS wrong....no matter how much I pray for mr right to come.......the wrong always comes...and my hopes get cut down again. My dad said i'd never get what I want....I have been standing against these words for so long....
But....
What....
What if?
Love Lanna
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Thu, 28 Apr 2005 11:23:40 -0700
Subject: It's Time!
Warrior Princes;
Where are you girl? Don't leave us now! There's too much at stake to "not finish the race".
I'm (we) are praying for you. The Lord is telling me to tell you that it's time for you to make a move. Come join us in the ministry of the prophets. Please pray about it.
In Christ,
Bruce
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Thu, 28 Apr 2005 16:32:42 -0700
Subject: Word From God
Warrior Princess;
I pray for you in your struggles. Let me encourage you; we are overcomers through Christ Jesus:
"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Romans 8:35-39 KJV)
Also, I've been playing around with the FMHCCI "Word Of God - Lanna Perry" Webpage. Check it out on our homepage (located below Classic Sermonets II). Let me know what you think of the changes/additions.
In christ,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Fri, 29 Apr 2005 10:23:15 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Re: It's Time!
Join you?
How do you mean?
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Thu, 28 Apr 2005 17:55:24 -0700
Subject: Re: It's Time!
Let me answer your question with another question? Has the Father shown you anything that would confirm what I have spoken to you concerning "It's Time"?
Bruce
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Thu, 28 Apr 2005 23:20:20 -0700
Subject: Re: It's Time! (cont.)
Warrior Princes;
I have been praying on what the Lord would have me give you. I can only imagine all the different "voices" you are hearing at this very critical place and time in your walk. Which one is from God and which ones are not? And what makes it super bad is the more friends you have to consult with the more confusing it gets. Because you must always keep it in mind that Satan will use the ones you trust in (love) the most to throw out the sucker ball. The bottom line is that your life is in your hands. You must hear from God and trust in His Word by walking out in faith to whatever He has called you to do. Very few people will understand that what you are called to do is actually from God. You are a very unique and special person, and your life will be just as unusual.
The Lord gave me the following Scripture to include in this letter for you. Please pray about it's relevance in your life:
"Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?" (1 Corinthians 3:16 KJV)
Please share with me what the Lord is showing you. Look at the Word God gave you to give me on 4/11/05. Don't you think I can be trusted?
In the Lord Jesus Christ,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Fri, 29 Apr 2005 22:47:57 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Hi! Love Lanna!
Hey,
Thank you for your constant support, love and encouragement lately.
Today, I had to tell my friend Hayden (who isn't a christian) that we cannot date, we just have to be friends. That was very hard, since we both have feelings for eachother, but I need to stand on what the Lord wants of me, and not what "I" want. I know that Hayden is not for me, but because there is a part of me really longing for love and affection, it was so easy that I nearlly fell into dating him, and allowing him to fill that part of me, instead of God.
Funny thing was, I couldn't walk away. Honestly, I contemplated it. Thought of ways I could justify dating him, and thought of ways I could still try and serve God with him. Everytime I thought about it, I felt sick. I knew I could not do that to my first love.
God kept convicting me in HUGE ways. No matter what I did throughout the day, I had this overwhelming conviction and unrest in my spirit, that nearlly drove me mad. So today, I did it. I told Hayden, I love his company and look forward to growing in friendship with him, but that's all it will ever be. Just friends.
Something shifted in the spirit when I did that. The conviction left. I know that it's okay by God for me to be his friend, but anything more than that the Lord will simply not allow.
I am definately feeling saddened, my emotions are feeling it, because I liked him, but I will wait for the man God has for me and not compromise. Also today, I prayed with a friend of mine and we broke the soul ties between hayden and I, and between myself and the man who tried to rape me the other night, and I do feel a little more at peace.
This trial has to be one that really shook me up. I believe God has something very important around the corner for me, and satan was trying to wipe me out in a HUGE way, but he is defeated. I am victorious in Christ, and he will NOT steal from me anymore.
I have also cut down majorily even more on who I share with, with many people telling me to stop prophesying, because i'm promoting myself too quickly, but this does not line up with what the Lord has told me, so I graciously thank them for their input, but I will continue to do what the Lord has asked of me.
I believe satan wants to shut me up, honestly! I've been having more and more prophetic dreams lately, about the anti-christ, and about witchcraft. Very bizarre.
I have no idea where I am going or what is next. I just know that I am about to be moved fairly soon.....I do see though, that the Lord needs to heal a certain part of me before I can be moved, which He has already begun doing. Through all the recent circumstances, he has showed me it's still there, and He is now healing it.
I am very aware now, more than ever of who I allow to speak over my life and the words I speak over my life. I really am.
I guess I never realised how the assignment and attack against me was so bad.
Satan really wants to take me out, and well he can try...but I am in God's hand....and NOBODY can snatch me out.
Please continue to uplift me as I stand on the decision with Hayden, that the Lord would take the pain away, and that Hayden would see more of God. Also, that the Lord would continue to heal everything in me, that He's showed me needs healing.
Thanks so much.
Look forward to hearing back from you.
Love Lanna
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Fri, 29 Apr 2005 18:21:46 -0700
Subject: Re: Hi! Love Lanna!
Hey yourself!
It's good to see you writing again, and, more importantly, it's good to see you writing God's Word again. Now we know what the meteors were all about - God's righteous judgement.
The Lord wanted me to send you the following. Please pray about it's significance in your life.
In Christ,
Bruce
Will You Go Out Without Knowing? (January 1)
My Utmost For His Highest by Oswald Chambers
"He went out, not knowing where he was going" (Hebrews 11:8).
Have you ever "gone out" in this way? If so, there is no logical answer possible when anyone asks you what you are doing. One of the most difficult questions to answer in Christian work is "What do you expect to do?" You don't know what you are going to do. The only thing you know is that God knows what He is doing. Continually examine your attitude toward God to see if you are willing to "go out" in every area of your life, trusting in God entirely. It is this attitude that keeps you in constant wonder, because you don't know what God is going to do next. Each morning as you wake, there is a new opportunity to "go out," building your confidence in God. "...do not worry about your life...nor about the body..." (Luke 12:22). In other words, don't worry about the things that concerned you before you did "go out."
Have you been asking God what He is going to do? He will never tell you. God does not tell you what He is going to do - He reveals to you who He is. Do you believe in a miracle-working God, and will you "go out" in complete surrender to Him until you are not surprised one iota by anything He does?
Believe God is always the God you know Him to be when you are nearest to Him. Then think how unnecessary and disrespectful worry is! Let the attitude of your life be a continual willingness to "go out" in dependency upon God, and your life will have a sacred and inexpressible charm about it that is very satisfying to Jesus. You must learn to "go out" through your convictions, creeds, or experiences until you come to the point in your faith where there is nothing between yourself and God.
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Sat, 30 Apr 2005 17:26:38 -0700
Subject: And Jesus Said "Come To Me"
Dear Lanna;
The Lord wanted me to send you two items. I'm praying for you.
In Christ,
Bruce
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"Woe unto you, when all men shall speak well of you! for so did their fathers to the false prophets." (Luke 6:26 KJV)
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Coming To Jesus (October 8)
My Utmost For His Highest by Oswald Chambers
“Come to Me…” (Matthew 11:28).
Isn’t it humiliating to be told that we must come to Jesus! Think of the things about which we will not come to Jesus Christ. If you want to know how real you are, test yourself by these words – “Come to Me….” In every dimension in which you are not real, you will argue or evade the issue altogether rather than come; you will go through sorrow rather than come; and you will do anything rather than come the last lap of the race of seemingly unspeakable foolishness and say, “Just as I am, I come.” As long as you have even the least bit of spiritual disrespect, it will always reveal itself in the fact that you are expecting God to tell you to do something very big, and yet all He is telling you to do is to “Come….”
“Come to Me….” When you hear those words, you will know that something must happen in you before you can come. The Holy Spirit will show you what you have to do, and it will involve anything that will uproot whatever is preventing you from getting through to Jesus. And you will never get any further until you are willing to do that very thing. The Holy Spirit will search out that one immovable stronghold within you, but He cannot budge it unless you are willing to let Him do so.
How often have you come to God with your request and gone away thinking, “I’ve really received what I wanted this time!” And yet you go away with nothing, while all the time God has stood with His hands outstretched not only to take you but also for you to take Him. Just think of the invincible, unconquerable, and untiring patience of Jesus, who lovingly says, “Come to Me….”
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Sun, 1 May 2005 21:05:40 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Wow! Luv Lanna!
Hi,
Wow, what a week.
From having a guy at a dinner party, attempt to rape me, and bruise me pretty badly...to my non-christian friend asking me out....and me almost being tempted to get into a relationship with him, because I was believing a lie from satan...what a week!!!!
I really pressed into God after the attempted rape, and God showed me some things that need to be healed in me, so I am having prayer for them next saturday with a couple that I trust. So that's going to be great. I am really looking forward to going deeper in healing. I want to be whole, and stronger in Christ.
I am blown away by Jesus. I really am. Just His faithfulness and love throughout this week and throughout the trial, that I believe has shaped me more than ever. Through thinking about dating Hayden, I found myself trying to justify how I could go out with him, and how I could get him to follow God and make it work, but all along I knew that God did not want me going out with him. God stuck by my side the whole time, and really helped me to see that I needed to take a 'stand' and really tell Hayden, all we can ever be is friends.
So I did. I broke the ungodly soul tie, and took that stand and oh what peace and deeper intimacy do I have in Christ through this. I really learnt some valuable lessons, but one I really learnt, is that I am ruined. There isn't any turning away for me, and even though I may get 'tempted' to be complacent and settle, I just cannot do it. I really saw just how ruined to Jesus I am, and that He does have a special call on my life, and I need to obey that.
This morning, I went to church, and the sermon was on "The desires of our hearts". The youth pastor spoke about God knowing the desires of our hearts and that He will give them to us as they are inline with His will, but as children of God we need to be prepared to serve Him even if we don't get what we are asking or believing God for. That we need to trust God to provide what we need, or the desires of our hearts, and if He doesn't give them to us, He will give us something much better. He then went on to talk about do NOT settle for second best.
I was sitting in my seat, and my heart was pounding. God was confirming to me, two things. One that I made the right decision with Hayden, and secondly that He is going to send me a man of God, and it's going to be soon.
Honestly, my sense is, that the enemy threw Hayden at me, because God is about to send the man He has for me, to me, very soon. At first, I thought it was just me, but it is being confirmed over and over. I believe I am going to meet my future husband very soon. Even if i don't, that's okay, because Jesus is enough for me, but it would be nice.
I really feel that this trial has really strengthened me. It has shown me more and more the calling on my life, and just how ruined I am to Christ, that there literally is no other way. Hallelujah! I nearlly got distracted, but God was faithful enough to speak to Me, and show me clearly, so I could take the appropriate steps.
I also resolved that I am not going to listen to people who are not in my close circle of people I trust to speak into my life. People coming at me all the time telling me i'm promoting myself too fast, and I need to stop prophesying, that does not go along with my belief of what the Lord has spoken to me about.
My mentor emailed me today, and told me he had prayed at a specific moment this weekend about a spirit that he saw trying to 'mock' me..and he broke it...and I felt it when he prayed and broke it. He said to me that this happened because I am really right with God, and really special to God, and God is really using me right now, that's why the attack has been so so so intense. So that was really encouraging, because honestly this week was the worst battle i've had in a long long time, so hard, and so intense...but it's encouraging because that means something HUGE is close, amen? A girl I've started spending time with from my new church, we went out today and had coffee and she said to me she saw such authority over my life. That really encouraged me.
I guess, I'm realising more and more, just how close I need to stay to Jesus, because it seems with the call or anointing He has placed over me, it's like the minute i am not constantly pressing into Jesus, I get pounced on...hmm....!!!
Woah, sorry for the long email. I'm back.....dusted myself off.....and ready to serve God at a deeper level. Hallelujah.
how are you?
Love in Jesus,
Lanna
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Mon, 2 May 2005 11:05:18 -0700
Subject: Re: Deception Lingers - word - Lanna Perry!
Warrior Princess;
A few e-mails back I warned you...and now you are speaking His Words of confirmation.
God bless you in your walk.
In the Lord Jesus Christ,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Tue, 3 May 2005 20:22:54 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Urgent Prayer Covering Needed!
Hi Everyone,
I do not ask this lightly, but I need your prayers.
The attacks against me, my life and the ministry that the Lord is building through me....has increased.....and has increased a lot...the reasoning...I am not exactly sure yet.
The enemy trying to tempt me and hook into me in any way he can, and it's getting really full on.
I really need intercessors to cover me in prayer. I need prayer for protection and to stand strong in Christ, and use the weapons that the Lord has given me to fight this.
A lot is at stake.
Thank you very much.
Blessings,
Lanna
Ps - If you are still waiting on a reply to an email from me, please bear with me, I am very very busy. Thanks :)
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Wed, 4 May 2005 23:49:29 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Hey!
Heeeeey....
Thank you so much for your prayers, and for your support, they really mean a lot right now.
I am really in the fire, the temptation to 'stray' has been huge. Even though I cannot stray, the temptation has been there....in greater ways than ever before.
Oh last nite, before i went to bed, as i was falling asleep i saw this huge demonic angel, and as soon as i saw it, i knew it was a high ranking demonic angel...and it looked at me and said 'this is what you're up against' and then disappeared. It didn't shake me at the time.....i just thought "woah"and went to sleep...but now that I think about it...I think "oh my gosh" and I am speaking out my victory and satan's defeat.....i just wonder what the purpose of that was.
I have started working with a guy at my work, and he's in his 40's and an amazing man of God. He's a pastor with an apostolic anointing, and we click so well. I'd heard that prophets go well with apostles, but never experienced that, boy oh boy I do now.
Anyways....today he just started talking to me, as I shared the whole hayden situation with him, and as he started sharing, I got all teary. He started saying, God is taking you up through the ranks, and as He is doing that, the temptation and the trials are getting harder, but it's okay, because if GOD didn't trust you or think you could handle it, He wouldn't have given it to you.
He told me if he could work with me everyday he'd love to, because the spiritual dimension is so different when i'm there, and he just loves to see our giftings mould so well together.
But what he said about the temptation and the trials increasing that really hit me. Then he went onto say, it's like God has you in a corner with His finger on your chest, telling you lovingly...rise up and do this....and you are caught between"ahhh Lord take it away....but then....no Lord never move away from me"..it's like every word he spoke to me....was hitting something in me....nailing me!!!!
He kept saying to me, that God is pruning me more, and that God spends a lot of time and effort on me.....
It just all really hit me....!!!!
Every word he spoke....nailed me.....like as he was speaking something was 'breaking' inside me....!!!!
Is that bizarre?*laughs*
God is so amazing....the more and more I go through this...the more and more I realise.....I just cannot live complacently for Him...I need to live passionately for Him....intimately knowing Him....any other way...just isn't satisfying.
So I continue to ask the Lord to protect me from enemy attack....give me the strength to fight in His strength...and teach me humility.
Ohhh check out Zech 2:10....it's an awesome verse.
Any part of the Word on your heart lately?
Blessings,
Lanna
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Sun, 8 May 2005 23:56:38 +1000 (EST)
Subject: So Urgent!!!!!!
Hi,
I emailed last week and asked for prayer...but now the Lord has shown me the prayer covering needs to increase in massive ways.
I cannot go into detail about what's going on, but I need prayer. Please pray God's angels and His Spirit to continue to be with me, and cover me. I have only sent this to those I trust to interceed for me, and be guided by the spirit, so please do NOT pass this on.
I may not be around for quite a while..and you more than likely won't see any prophetic words from me...don't worry....but please keep praying. I cannot express the urgency and importance of this. Everything is hinging on this now.
Please reply to this email, so I know it got through, I'm having trouble with my email tonight.
Blessings,
Lanna
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Sun, 8 May 2005 08:49:00 -0700
Subject: Re: So Urgent!!!!!!
Warrior Princess;
I see your condition, your predicament, and just wish that you would let God have His way. I was sent to you by the Almighty for a reason, and you spoke it - "Leaders that will get alongside those who are asleep, who are in the shadows and playing with vines that are not of Me, and lead them back to Me." Stop looking to the "stars" for direction; they have fallen. Do it God's way or you will be defeated. I pray for your total submission to His Will.
In Christ,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Mon, 9 May 2005 10:10:23 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Bruce!
Bruce,
This is what I'm facing. This email came through to me yesterday by someone i don't know very well, but have communicated with a little. This has shaken me up.
Blessings,
Lanna
DEAR PRECIOUS SISTER,
After I sent the interpretation to you, I still felt very concerned for you in my spirit and I called to pray with a prophet to whom I make myself accountable who has been with Harvest Ministries for 21 years. I did not tell her anything about you, but asked her to pray in the spirit with me and she also heard that you are in a serious, very serious situation right now. We do not want to frighten you or anything, but feel strongly impressed that Father wants to warn you as His beloved daughter, that satan is sending some to kill you - physically kill you. PLEASE REALLY SEEK GOD AND PRAY. ASK GOD FOR WISDOM, KNOWLEDGE AND UNDERSTANDING ABOUT THOSE AROUND YOU!
ALSO, the strong urging from the Holy Spirit came to advise you to close down your web site so that no one can get to it for 30 days.
I will communicate to you through this private email address, unless you feel led to change it too - or share with you via regular mail. THIS IS A VERY SERIOUS MATTER.
I have prayed for you and Father has answered the prayers to save your life - however -there is still a physical thing you will have to go through - He will bring you through it, and not allow them to take your life.
Please know this is sent with great love and prayerfulness over you, dear lovely Lanna. Father loves you very dearly and I feel the wonderfulness of your spirit and essence too - in just the few communications we have had - you are very special. Please pray and seek Him deeply about these things. I have mentioned this to no one else other than the woman who prayed with me and I pray you too, will not speak of this to anyone unless the LORD CLEARLY leads you - you do not want to tell the wrong person who is masquerading as one who loves you, but in reality does not. Since I know Gary and his wife, Debbie, I know that they are safe, but please be guarded right now about anyone else other than them.
Love and much prayer, Kathryn
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Sun, 8 May 2005 21:01:12 -0700
Subject: Re: Bruce!
Warrior Princess;
Did the Father instruct you to send me this?
In Christ,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Mon, 9 May 2005 15:52:31 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Re: Bruce!
I believe so...
Why?
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Tue, 10 May 2005 06:27 +0000
Subject: Threats
Warrior Princess;
The Devil is mad and we're glad! The Lord has had me interceding for you and others the past few days. It's indescribable how I feel. I'm unable to function in a normal way. I'm incapable of anything but prayer. God is with you.
The reason I asked you the question was that I just wanted to make sure you are seeking God in all things. You are not to fear man or demons but only God Almighty. If you are walking in His Light, only doing what He shows you to do (in all things), then you need not to worry about your protection. However if you become mesmerized by the men and women who look and talk holy then you are headed for a fall. Do not trust in any person, trust only in God Almighty.
And having said that, let's bring the discussion back to me. I've given you much instruction. How much of it was from God? Whatever I have spoken that was from the Lord your life depends on you receiving it...not because I said it but because "Thus saith the Lord!"
So what about Kathryn? Some of what she said was of God and some was not. Test the spirits concerning eveything that everyone tells you...your everlasting life depends on it. Do not just blindly believe what Kathryn has spoken to you. Seek God on each item that she has addressed and then act accordingly.
In the Father's Love,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Tue, 10 May 2005 17:48:24 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Re: Threats
Hey Hey,
Thank you so much for your email. I am really thankful to have you in my life. Without your words spoken into my life, I wouldn't be where I am today, that's for sure.
I have chosen to stand firm on the Word, and that's exactly what I have been doing. I have been reading scripture, claiming scripture, and just bathing myself completely in scripture.
You know something that is good, it's only 'small' but it's still small progress, is that I didn't 'freak out' as much as I did this time, when I got so attacked like this last time. My 'standing/rising up' has happened a lot quicker, so I am slowly learning, which is a good point.
I know this may sound weird, but all day today, I have been hearing furniture moving above me, like there was a ceiling above me, and someone moving things around on another floor. I asked God what that was, and He said to me that He is moving things around in my life. That He is really moving things in the spiritual realm. I may not 'see' these things, but this is one of the reasons I am being so attacked, but it was amazing, I could literally hear furniture moving.
So God is obviously doing some full on things in the spiritual realm, I just can't seem them, because from my perspective my life is really all still the same. I am not doing anything amazingly different, except this Friday I am going to sit in a prayer session with my mentor, and his client, and I am going to interceed and be a 'seer', in his ministry, so we are just trying this out every Friday, to see where God takes me from there. So maybe that's why the attack has been so horrific?
I can see so clearly now, how that email from that lady was such an attack. It really was. Although, the truth I did take out of it, was that God wanted me to sift through my friends again. So I closed down my msn messenger addy, and made a new one, and only added those whom the Lord allowed me too, so I feel a lot better since doing that, and am now even more wary of who I share with and who I email. I just never realised this was so full on. I don't believe closing my website is the right thing to do, or stop sending prophetic words, so I will continue to do what I am feeling called too until God says "no more". I am seeing my ex counsellor tomorrow, who believed the email WAS from God, and that I am to shut down my website etc, so please pray for grace for her, and me, and for her to see God's truth....Thanks.
I know that I need to learn to fight well, and continue to stand no matter what, and I am excited that i AM learning, and can't wait for God to send me out or promote me further. With people telling me i am promoting myself too quickly, I am not promoting anything. God is giving me the words, and I send them out. Plain and simple. A lady who I trust and is amazing, told me today, "Lanna, I don't say this to you to puff you up, but your name is going to be so well known, like Joyce Meyer, but that means you will receive a lot of criticism and attack, so God is training you how to deal with it now, so that you can be ready when He sends you forth".
That blows me away. That bares witness in my Spirit, but oh my gosh, it's like engrained in me. Not to "be known" for my glory.....but it's like engrained in me, that I know it's going to happen.
Today, I also felt God saying, that I am going to be speaking to women soon, about standing in faith, and not being shaken. Speaking the word out no matter the circumstances, and miracles coming from that faith, and also I keep hearing that I am going to be speaking to young women, encouraging them to wait for the right guy, as the Lord is going to hook me up soon with the right guy, and I will have an amazing testimony to many thousands of women, why to wait.
Whatcha think? :) Isn't that amazing?
Just sharing all this with you excites me so much!!!!!
Hallelujah, thank you Lord for all you've done. Psalm 66:16
Can't wait to hear back from you.
Love and prayers,
Lanna :)
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Tue, 10 May 2005 19:54:41 -0700
Subject: Re: Keep Unbelief Out - word - Lanna Perry!
Warrior Princess;
I praise God for your commitment to speak His Word! Amen and Amen! I too needed to hear that Word from God. Thank you!!!
In fact it was only a few days ago that the Lord gave me the following to give to a Sister in the Lord who was asking me why she "groaned in the spirit" at her husbands death:
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I have been praying about your husband’s death and you “groaning” in the Holy Spirit, and this is what the Lord has given me for you:
“Then when Mary was come where Jesus was, and saw him, she fell down at his feet, saying unto him, Lord, if thou hadst been here, my brother had not died. When Jesus therefore saw her weeping, and the Jews also weeping which came with her, he groaned in the spirit, and was troubled, And said, Where have ye laid him? They said unto him, Lord, come and see. Jesus wept. Then said the Jews, Behold how he loved him! And some of them said, Could not this man, which opened the eyes of the blind, have caused that even this man should not have died? Jesus therefore again groaning in himself cometh to the grave. It was a cave, and a stone lay upon it. Jesus said, Take ye away the stone. Martha, the sister of him that was dead, saith unto him, Lord, by this time he stinketh: for he hath been dead four days. Jesus saith unto her, Said I not unto thee, that, if thou wouldest believe, thou shouldest see the glory of God?” (John 11:32-40 KJV)
And turning to “Robertson’s Word Pictures” we find the following very good description of the meaning:
“He groaned in the spirit (enebrime¯sato to¯i pneumati). First aorist middle indicative of embrimaomai, old verb (from en, and brime¯, strength) to snort with anger like a horse. It occurs in the lxx (Dan 11:30) for violent displeasure. The notion of indignation is present in the other examples of the word in the N.T. (Mar_1:43; Mar_14:5; Mat_9:30). So it seems best to see that sense here and in Joh_11:38. The presence of these Jews, the grief of Mary, Christ’s own concern, the problem of the raising of Lazarus - all greatly agitated the spirit of Jesus (locative case to¯i pneumati). He struggled for self-control.”
Jesus “groaned in the spirit” because of their “unbelief”. They did not “believe” Jesus could/would raise Lazarus from the dead. And this goes back to your husband who you were “groaning in the Spirit” over. Did he “believe” Jesus would raise him from the dead? Did your husband “believe”? (More on this later.)
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Now that was a hard Word to give, but "unbelief" is a serious issue with God.
Lord help my unbelief!!!
In Christ,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Wed, 11 May 2005 20:14:31 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Warrior Princess Reporting For Duty! Luv Lanna!
Hi,
How are you?
I am actually going to share this email I am writing to you with one or two others that have been supporting me and wondering how I am, and I simply don't have time tonight to write out 4 individual emails, so I am sharing this with you and a few others.
Isn't it amazing, just when you think that you have stood firm ontop of a trial, it then comes and bites you in the backside and you slip down again. Thank God that He is so forgiving and gracious though. That when we fall, He picks us up and dusts us off. I love Him so much. He's so loving, and not a God of condemnation. Hallelujah.
You know how I always say a lot of the time, the responsibility that seems to have come with the calling God has given me seems huge, well it just keeps getting bigger. Hehe. The attack has increased in huge ways, and I have to be so careful of a lot of things, and always be on guard and standing on the Word, because I've realised, it's like there are these wolves surrounding me, ready to attack me, and rip into me as soon as I am 'off guard'. Ridiculous, but I am definately being trained for battle. That's for sure. The level of attack has increased in crazy ways, but you know what is great? The fact that more and more the warrior Lanna is RISING UP more and more. Learning to rise up MORE and MORE in the trials. WOO!!!!!! I'm kicking demon butt!!!!
I wanted to ask you, I am having this continual 'sense' and am not 'sure' about it yet, so I am just praying about it, but honestly wanted your input. I keep feeling like I am to purchase a ministry name. Somehow open up a ministry, prophetic ministry. I don't know how this would work, but like "Extreme Prophetic" or "Godspeak" all of them, they have a ministry 'set up' and a 'name' which they have purchased somehow etc. How would you go about setting up a ministry name? Somewhere where people can then begin to recognise a 'ministry name' or in the future be a place where I could have resources for people to purchase. Do you have to buy a company name? Just curious....because for some reason it's really been on my heart.
I've been really excited to know that God is moving things 'spiritually' for me, that He is actually moving things around in the spirit realm, I just can't wait for it to manifest in the natural. It will be awesome. Just have to continue to rejoice in the waiting.
It's hard though, I mean there aren't any preaching opportunities being given to me, or any doors being opened...everything is still very mundane and the 'same'. No new opportunities, so discouragement is easily nurtured, but I choose not to nuture it, but continue to speak out the Word of God into my life, that He has good plans for Me, and in His time, He will say to me this is the way, walk in it.
I met with my ex counsellor, who is now my mentor yesterday, who believed that I was to shut down my website and stop prophesying because i am promoting myself too quickly, and that never sat with me. I always and continue to hear God telling me to keep moving forward in the ministry He has given me. I prayed for her for grace yesterday, and when I went and saw her, she was okay with the fact that I am moving ahead, and just continued to encourage me to be cautious. So that was definately a praise report.
The word i sent out about 'keeping unbelief out of your life' has been burning in me. I am really passionate about His Word, and passionate about seeing people stand firm in it, and not doubt, (myself included) so I do pray and hope that it is well received and encourages people to move from their unbelief and into the power of His truth, because it's His Word that changes lives, and will change the face of this world, if we His children are willing to allow Him to use us in that way.
Anyways....how was your time with God today?
Bless Ya heaps,
Your Aussie friend,
Lanna
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Wed, 11 May 2005 17:27:05 -0700
Subject: Re: Warrior Princess Reporting For Duty! Luv Lanna!
Dear Lanna;
Let me start with how we established our ministry. We are a non-prophet organization registered with the state of South Carolina. This has established FMHCCI as a ministry. That's the way the Lord had me do our's.
Next thing, you are a prophet. Your ministry will be much like John the Baptizer. He wore camel hair and ate locus dipped in honey. He was an unusual character who didn't fit in with and was not accepted by the norm. When I first started the ministry I saw myself as a "popular" minister of the gospel, but what I "saw" and what I have experienced up to now has been radically different. I have lost my job, my family, and become homeless as a direct result of speaking God's Word. I am also not accepted by the church. That's the life of a prophet! Receive it!
As it concerns your statement - "The word i sent out about 'keeping unbelief out of your life' has been burning in me. I am really passionate about His Word, and passionate about seeing people stand firm in it..." - the Lord wants me to ask you for your understanding of what "Word of faith" means.
In Christ,
Bruce
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Thu, 12 May 2005 18:04:02 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Lord, please help me let go! Luv Lanna!
Hey!!!
The Lord has showed me something today....concerning a situation that I am having a bit of trouble letting go of....but am in the process of severing all ties....but.....can I ask....that you please pray for me..that the Lord would confirm the vision to me, that He gave me?
If it was God (which I believe it was) I am so excited :)) but just want prayer covering that confirmation would come within 3 days about this vision.
So feel free to share anything with me that you see or hear on this matter :) Don't pass this on, as I am only sharing it with the very few whom I trust to hear God clearly :))
Blessings,
Lanna :))
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Fri, 13 May 2005 09:54:25 -0700
Subject: Re: Lord, please help me let go! Luv Lanna!
Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves. Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles? Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit. A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit. Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire. Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them. (Matthew 7:15-20 KJV)
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Sun, 15 May 2005 17:01:07 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Miss Warrior Princess!
Hi,
I am writing this to you again, because I honestly don't know where to turn right now. I've told God, and I keep telling God but need some physical reponse too.
I started in a ministry with my new mentor on Friday. I am sitting in with him weekly, and praying with clients, and I see in the spirit for him, and then he discerns what I see and prays and breaks things off people's lives. It's been an amazing ministry, and I saw wonderful results last Friday. God moved hugely.
So that's been the great part. I feel like I'm moving forward in my giftings, and I praise God for giving me this opportunity. On the other hand though, the attack is getting worse. I know I have said a lot lately that the attacks have increased but they are surely increasing more than ever now.
I am having men come to me out of the blue who aren't christians, some who are my friends, and some who aren't, wanting to date me, and me having to continue to stand my ground and say "no", and with some close friendships having to distance myself from them, and it's tearing my heart out. It's really hard and i'm struggling with it a lot. I'll never date any of them,but to lose them as friends aswell is awful. I don't know if I can go through with that.
Then friends who are trying to drag me away from God, in subtle ways, so having to cut off those friendships too, and also just keep standing firm. Having demonic figures coming against me, and trying to sway me and telling me that the opposition I am up against is going to be too great for me and I shouldn't keep moving forward in my calling because I have no idea what i'm up against.
Thent oday, I saw a snake all the way around me. All around the outside of me, and that's how i've been feeling, kinda 'bound' or 'boxed in' finding it too hard to cut off friendships and other things, and am now about to start fasting and praying for this thing whatever it is to be broken so I may move forward.
I am standing firm in the Word, but I'm getting tired, and as each day goes on I am feeling more and more worried about the calling the Lord has given me, because I never realised how huge the sacrifice was, and how much pain and heartache is involved.
Giving up one of my friends, who is a male, because I don't know if we can be friends since he likes me and isn't a christian, is the hardest. I don't know if i can do it, and my heart is killing. It really is.
Being thrown mind attacks with sentences like "you know this calling is too hard, look how much you're having to give up and you get attacked more than anyone"....it's just getting harder.
I know God wouldn't let this happen to me if i wasn't able to handle it, but my goodness something huge must be before me, because this has literally been the hardest time of my life and I feel like I am not pleasing God somehow, by finding it hard to let go of some friendships.
I am really struggling.
What is about to happen for me? that the attacks are horrendous? every area of my life, i'm being attacked.....I am standing in victory...in JESUS....and i WILL win......but I'm really struggling in the process.
I really just need a huge hug and comfort now...and knew you'd be here for me.
Love in Jesus,
Lanna
From: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
To: bruce@fmh-child.org
Sent: Mon, 16 May 2005 22:22:39 +1000 (EST)
Subject: Hi Everyone! Love Lanna Perry!
Hi Everyone,
I just wanted to send out a huge thank you for your continued prayers for me, and for the ministry the Lord is preparing me for, both online and offline.
The Lord is faithful, and He is continually helping me to stand firm and fight in His strength.
The attacks continue to increase along with temptation, but I continue to stand on Him, my Rock. I am battling through lies being thrown at me, along with lying emotions and situations that I am slowly letting go of, that are not drawing me closer to God.
I ask that you please continue to pray for me as the Lord leads. Your encouragement and prayers means more to me than you know. If the Lord leads you, please continue praying for me, as I am still in a very criticial and crucial season of my life.
Thank you for supporting me, loving me, and sowing into the ministry God is establishing through me, through your prayers and encouragement.
Blessings,
Lanna Perry
Sydney Australia
http://www.ourchurch.com/view/?pageID=216990
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Thu, 19 May 2005 10:36:01 -0700
Subject: Re: I Know You - word - Lanna Perry!
Warrior Princess;
Help me out. What is your understanding of the following:
"Search deep into your hearts, and find the fears that are plauging you. Find the fears that are telling you, that if you move one way the wrong way, you will miss out on all I have for you. Rubbish My children. As you continue to walk in holiness with your eyes focused on Me, you will not miss out."
How does it fit in with Philippians 2:12:
"Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling." (Philippians 2:12 KJV)
Ih Christ,
Bruce
From: bruce@fmh-child.org
To: chosenwarriorprincess@yahoo.com.au
Sent: Wed, 25 May 2005 07:58:53 -0700
Subject: Long Time
Warrior Princess;
Long time no see!
In Christ,
Bruce
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